We got back yesterday from our weekend excursion to Maryland for John and Laura’s wedding. They are in Ireland right now having a blast, I assume. I tried to get them to pack me in a suitcase to take with them so I can see Ireland (I’ll probably never be able to afford the trip) but they, strangely enough, wanted to be alone on their honeymoon. Can you believe the nerve of them? sheesh.

I have been having a sickeningly craptastic summer. There’s nothing worse than feeling lonely when you’re surrounded by people who care about you. Even with all these friends and family of mine, I still feel disgustingly lonely. And then I feel really shitty because how am I supposed to even get this off my chest without making my friends feel horrible. And to top it all off, I realized what that “one thing” is that I’ve been missing since I’ve been up here in MA… but he’s 500 miles away. All of my friends here are great, but he’s the one friend who knows me from the inside out. More than even Kristen (if that were possible).

sigh.

I need to make some mix cds to cheer myself up.